Chaosfire's Xanga

Monday, November 03, 2008

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 23:14:14 GMT

dear diaries are stupid,

Well been a while, I'm sick about to graduate and programming. Nothing else new. Nothing matters so why not do everything lol.

sleep is for stupids.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 00:36:49 GMT

Dear diaries are stupid,

I stare at my sword wondering it's reason, There are no enemies to fight nothing to protect anymore. blood soaks it from the hilt to it's edge. It glimmers in a crimson shade of emotion and thought. I stand again with no reason no hope no fear. The light no longers blinds my sight the dark no longer hinders my movements. I walk with purpose not for others but for myself.

Sleep is for stupids

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Thu, 22 May 2008 05:16:40 GMT

Watching anime cause i'm bored and i'm a bit better then i was a few days ago where we have the comments i've been thinking of for all of the series i'm watching

Eva the movie, It's a fantastic movie amazingly gorgeous. it really captures what i like about shinji, the music is fantastic. Shinji is forced to pilot the eva and hates it. Al it is to his is fear and pain yet he is forced to carry the burden of everyones hopes of survival in this movie. his father is cold to him and no one is nice to him. Essentially he says it himself that if he could not pilot eva he would be useless and he would have no meaning no one would care about him. So his choices are doing something terrifiying for a very little reward of thank you from misato, or have no one care about him and run away. i think misato is done a bit better in the movie as apposed to the series. In the movie she's more hippoicritical and meaner. She's alot more minipulative. Everyone uses shinji and then expect him not to notice but he does. They waver signs of affection and meaningless words of caring to him to get him to do what they want and you know what he follows it because it's just a little bit better then nothing but he relizes what there doing. that aside I really didn't notice this until dev pointed it out but the scene after they get shinji after running away shinji say "I understand that i have no freedom left, fine i'll pilot eva for you." Misato says "don't say that you have as much freedom as you want. It's your choice weather to pilot EVA or Not" when they just dragged his ass back in and she closes what looks like a futuristic prison door on shiji. So if shiji really had a choice why are you confining him in this prison like cell. He already made the choice your not allowing him. ok enough with eva now time to move onto code geass

I'm talking about ep r2 07 if you don't want spoilers read another time. I really like the character of lulouch. He's a fantastically twisted character. He can hate himself and still fight like nothings wrong. His power is amazing and it's a perfect reflection of his personality and not only that he doesn't depend upon a power that could consume his very being. he chooses to aid him in all he does it's amazingly fantastic more later sleepy

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Thu, 08 May 2008 06:07:53 GMT

My apartment was broken into tonight, they took my labtop.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 06:16:15 GMT

to someone somewhere alma matters in mind body and soul.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 17:09:56 GMT

The sky is a huberous shade of grey. It's been so long since i've seen a clear sky. I'm doubled over in pain unable to look even if there was. Clouds shade the ground from the light that burns. It felt like rain poured down from every inch, every facet of the cold grey sky. Tears were the only rain that were falling, falling as if it were accompanied by thunder and lighting. Worst of all I don't even know the reason for this. There is no reason at all nothing to force there feeling and yet i feel this way.

I will walk on, I will move forward. Even if i must sever the hands and legs that are bound and chained i will walk forward. How i do it will be entirely up to me. heh I've already cut off my own wings what are a few more.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 20:54:16 GMT

so yea basically she told me that all the feeling she had for me just went away. And there nothing more there. pretty funny how that can happen in a week.

I guess i'm a pretty frogetable person. heh. As always thing arn't as easily frogetable from my standpoint.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 22:49:23 GMT

depression

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Thu, 06 Mar 2008 18:16:23 GMT

dear diaries are stupid,

Bad week for school, no work due until the monday and tuesday after break which means during break i'm going to be busy, need money, I finally have a GF, just bought a wii today randomly, i feel really bad cause i woke up late to my one class that had a quiz and feel horrible now. Must complete lab show up everyday ontime and ace next midterm and quizes. then i'll pass. lol.

"No Hope, No Future"

Sleep is for stupids

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 06:14:16 GMT

Dear diaries are stupid,

So yea went to south street skipped class and got advanced wars day's of ruin and ultimates 2 confessions of a blabbermouth and kimmie 66. Love the ultimates and the other 2 were by my fave artist so i need to support him. I just finished ultimates 2 loved it. In it they have bruce banner and something he wrote stating that the others in the ultimates were his best friends and afterwards they were like " I bearly spoke even 10 minutes to him to think that we were his best friends. what a lonely existance." Makes me like bruce banner like 10 times more right now. I'm waiting to get my hands on the Green lantern sincestory corps war part 1 cause they were beyond awsome. Need more comics.

"No Hope, No Future"

Sleep is for stupids